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love love love [Friday Oct.17.08] [ mood | loved ] I've never felt so in love in my entire life. Just wanted to share this :D Spin.

i don't know anyone... [Thursday Oct.16.08] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Bon Iver- Skinny Love ] I have the greatest ideas for my 365 pictures, I just never have the time or the money to buy a tripod. Which sucks. Tomorrow Adam and I are going to a Halloween store so I can buy make up and fake blood for my newest idea. I probably wont get to do it until Wednesday next week or maybe, maybe Sunday because that's when I have off. I feel bad because I sort of hurt his feelings tonight when I said I have to shower after hanging out because I smell like cigarettes. I didn't mean like "oh gosh you stink I need to shower" lol. I just really hate cigarettes and I can't go to sleep smelling like one. I love him so much, and I don't care that he smokes. I mean grant it I want him to quit because I'd like to spend the rest of our lives together and I don't want him to get emphysema or cancer or anything, ya know? He asked what I would do when we move in together and I said "well, we'll have the windows open, because he keeps his windows closed and has an air conditioner. Which is crazy to me, he kept it on on days when it was chilly out lol. So then he said 'No the air will be on'. Which I don't really like the air that much, I'd rather have the natural breeze coming in through the window. But then I said "well what about when I become pregnant", and I only asked because my manager just found out he's going to be a dad and he and his girlfriend both quit. And he said 'I'll smoke in the bathroom' haha. It's not that big of a deal, I mean I hate smelling like an ash tray but I love him, and sometimes you have to make sacrifices for the people you love. The people who know me know why I despise cigarettes so much, so they probably understand. I just know smelling cigarettes is worth it if it means I get to be with him. We never really officially got together on a certain day, someone asked him one night if we were boyfriend and girlfriend and he replied yes. So I just decided that the day we kissed would be the day we were officially together because that was the day I knew I didn't want to kiss any other guy again :). I recently discovered a singer named Katie Melua. She is so amazing. There a song called "I cried for you" which I thoroughly recommend listening to, and if possible watching the video. Especially if you've ever lost someone. It's a beautiful song. The other song I really like is called "Piece by Piece", which is the name of the album. I've been listening to a lot of different things lately. I started to listen to Rilo Kiley and Iron Horse, heard of them through Adam :) and he also told me about Guano Apes, who are freakin' awesome. I am going to be trying out for a play in November. It's for the part of a lounge singer, apparently it's Marilyn Monroe. I'm so excited, and nervous. It's my first time so I don't know how well I will do but it's worth a shot. I want to build a resume to possibly join this acting group who travels the world for months at a time doing shows. Hopefully it works out. I also put up classifieds for a band. I've gotten two responses so far, one from a band in New Jersey and the other in Philly. I don't really know what kind of music I want to do. I actually did karaoke last Saturday. I did Toxicity by System of A Down, lol. It actually was very exhilarating and everyone there went crazy. Adam told me I need to loosen up and he'll learn me lol. I was so nervous that I just stood still haha. It was my first time doing something heavy in front other people so you can only imagine my fear. But I'm glad I did. My mom bought a kitten, his name is Coal. He's a black and very very friendly lol. I was kind of surprised considering she hates animals but she only bought it to get rid of the mice we have in our basement. No luck as of late with the driving. Haven't had the time to get anyone to teach me, kind of sucks. I don't think I'll meet me goals by December but I'll keep trying anyway. Well I've talked entirely way too much, night all. Anyone who reads lol. Spin.

plans.. [Wednesday Sep.24.08] [ mood | accomplished ] I've been driving and my goal is to have my license by the end of this year. I really want to move out as well. I've been looking for an apartment. I found one in Norwood, it's 675 a month, but my mom said to keep looking. Adam told me to find an apartment in Collingdale so we'd be close hehe. My manager asked if we were going to move in together, and I said no, I want to take it slow. I always rush things and I'd like to be on my own for once, be independent, and not screw this up. It's so crazy how everyone I know, that's my age, is getting married or already is married and has children. It's so weird. I've been thinking back at when I was 14 and how I pictured myself at this age. I think I thought I'd be graduating from college moving in with my boyfriend and we'd be engaged and I'd be singing in a band. Crazy how I'm no where near any of those things. But at the same time, I'm sort of glad. I know I'm not ready for anything like that yet and at 14 I looked at 21 as being like 30. My mom thinks Adam and I will be married within the next five years :). She said we're both so great for each other because we are simple kind of people. We don't need luxury and we're just so happy together. I hope she is right, because he is so wonderful. I think the thing that makes me feel so proud of myself is the fact that I never turned in to what she thought I would. And in return the one who she thought was right for him, did. That's all I'm going to say about that. I'm gonna go read, night all. Sleep well :) Spin.

meet me by the water tonight.... [Friday Aug.22.08] [ mood | sleepy ] I started this project called 365 on flickr.com. Everyday for a year you have to take a new picture of yourself. At first I didn't really want to join because I don't exactly think I'm the most beautiful girl. But then I took this photo, it's actually my DAY 1, and it made me realize that maybe I am beautiful, not in a supermodel way or anything like that, but in my own way. I decided to post the photo, which was a huge step for me considering I had never done anything like it. The feeling after wards was like a self discovery, like I had finally come face to face with all the horrible things that have been said over the years and I realized none of it matter. The photo I took was of me without my eye. I've come to realize that being with him I've stopped criticizing myself as much, I've opened up. It's an amazing feeling to have someone who makes you feel like no one else is around, like the only people in the room are you and him. For the first time, in a very very long time, I feel safe. I know when I'm with him no one can harm me. Adam, Chris and I are going to the Monster Con on Saturday, I'm so excited. It's my first horror convention ever! I feel like such a noob but it's not like I had the chance to go before. Tonight Julie made lasagna and I invited him over, everyone picked on me of course. Alicia was saying how she bakes, and Julie how she cooks and Adam says "well what do you do?" and I just drank my drink and was quiet lol. Then my mom says "She can make a mean cup of tea!" haha. I was like great now he's gonna make fun of me for that for the rest of the night, and of course, he did lol. He calls me Lizasaurous Rex cause when it comes time to pay i move my arms like a dinosaur hahahaha. He's such a nut. He has like a new weird name for me everyday. He even said he's gonna write a song about it lol. He's been so supportive of my photography though and has even helped me with ideas, and has modeled for me lol, as much as he hates it :). I can't wait for Autumn. I like the cold. Random, I know heh. But I think I better get to bed I open tomorrow. Night all.. Spin.

take my hand... [Wednesday Jul.9.08] [ mood | creative ] [ music | The Duhks- Heaven's My Home ] Can't sleep. I keep thinking of good ideas for photos and I can't do any of them now 'cause it's way too late. I ordered Good Burger, Little Monsters, Super Mario Brothers, & Get Away From Me by Nellie McKay and they came today. I was so excited lol. We all watched Good Burger, it was too funny how much we all remembered. Adam and I went to Borders on Sunday and I bought a Zombie comic and Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk. Hopefully its a good read, I read the first page and was dying so I had to buy it. It's about this porno chick who decides she wants to break a record by having sex with 600 guys in a row. It sounds so disgusting, right? But I really like Chuck so hopefully it's good. We went to Dynasty Buffet for dinner and his fortune cookie said "there is a true and sincere friendship between you two." I thought that was ka indeed :D. But I think I'm gonna get some sleep so I don't waste my day off tomorrow. We're going to hang out and I wanna go to the thrift store. night all :) Spin.

perfect [Wednesday Jul.2.08] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | Etta James - Again ] The wedding wasn't too bad. We didn't dance at all which I really didn't mind. When they were saying their vows he was looking at me and smiling, he just put his arm around me and everything just felt perfect. Their song was a Kenny Chesney song, and he said to me "Our song will be Cannibal Corpse." haha. He's so crazy. We wound up leaving early and went to Haggarty's with Benny, one of the guys he works with. I hadn't really eaten anything so I was feeling pretty good after two beers, hah. The DJ played Build me up buttercup and Benny and I started singing pretty loud and then all of a sudden Adam joined in, it was so cute. Were such nerds. Benny wound up leaving early cause I think he was feeling the bottle of Seagram he pretty much drank all by himself at the wedding. So Adam and I wound up going to Marty McGee's to play some darts and some creepy guy came over to us and started telling Adam he was afraid for me and to take care of me. That was pretty much our cue to leave lol. We went back to his place and made pizza and he fell asleep on the couch, he looked so adorable. I woke him up and then we went to bed, and he couldn't stop kissing me. It was a perfect weekend with him. Julie even text me drunkenly and said I love you and moments later sent Adam a message saying "I love you for loving my sister" hehe. Sunday we just laid around and listened to music. It was so nice to just relax. We went to Putt Putt on Wednesday it was so hilarious. He is terrible, even worse than I am hehe. At one point he got down on his knees and knocked the ball in the hole like he was playing pool lol. At the end when we got to the last hole you had to get it up a ramp like thing and they were playing Billy Squire's "Stroke Me" and he started dancing on the ramp and stroking the golf club. It was hilarious. There was an older couple staring at him and laughing. I was dying, it was so great. He is so funny, you have no idea how happy he makes me :). I can't wait till the weekend comes again, I really don't want to work on the fourth. I know it's going to be dead, and we're open until 7. Pointless, right? Yeah. But I should get to bed, I just figured I'd update. I was up finishing a poem and doing the border for a friend. Took me like five days to finally get to finish it. Hopefully she likes it. goodnight all :) Spin.

[Tuesday Jun.17.08] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Sinch- Armslength ] So I'm starting to get a cold, and it's beautiful out, which really sucks. But for some reason, I'm still walking around smiling... I think it's because of him :). It's crazy how much I can't stop smiling. He's so wonderful. Saturday night he was completely wasted before we got to the bar because he was jammin with his friend Dave, who was the guitarist in his old band, and he drank like 9 beers and 3 shots within the span of 2 hours. Yeah, lol, when I got to the bar he was a so goofy. He only had one beer at the bar and pretty much drank water all night cause he said he wanted to make sure he drove safe for me :). He was so sweet,we went back to his place after wards and I was cold and he gave me his hoodie and I wound up falling asleep in his arms. We spent most of Sunday together but then he drove me home early cause I was going to the movies with my Pop to see Incredible Hulk for father's day. Which was actually really good. The ending was awesome, just go see it. Adam'staking me out to dinner tomorrow night. We're gonna go to Famous Dave's 'cause their food is delicious lol. I'm pulling a double Friday and Saturday, I'm gonna be so tired this weekend, it really sucks. We both agreed were tired of TnJ so maybe we'll do something different this weekend. I can't wait to see him tomorrow. It's so nice we don't spend too much time together and when we're together, I just feel so happy. When we were at TnJ's Nell's said to my Uncle "he's in love with her, he's probably gonna marry her someday." I told him and he just smiled lol. It's funny cause everyone always makes fun of us when we go out, cause we just hold hands and smile and laugh. It may seem corny, but we just can't help it :). I'm definitely going to visit Carrie this Sunday. And Greg and I are jammin on Thursday. I hung out with Jim on Tuesday night and we went to Rob's. I watched them play Soulcalibur III for a little and talked about random shit. Then we went to Wawa and dropped Rob off at home cause he was tired. Jim came back to my house and we just talked about more random stuff till like 3am and then he went home lol. It was cool seeing Rob and hanging with Jim for the night. It's good to have my friends back. Carrie told me about this girl named Adele, she's really good. You should check her out. My Pop and I are going to see The Eagles on July 14th :) I can't wait. I don't really know all their songs but for the most part they are good :). Well I'm gonna go shower and eat dinner. Have off tomorrow so i'm gonna take some pics before Adam and I hang out. later all 2 Records - Spin.

when you gonna love you as much as i do [Thursday Jun.12.08] [ mood | so happy! ] [ music | Tori Amos - Winter ] So we were talking about vices like a week ago and he said 'We all have our vices' his being cigarettes, and I was like I don't think I have one. Well of course tonight he discovers mine is chapstick and made fun of me for it for like ten minutes straight. It was actually pretty funny, cause it's so true. I honestly can't live without it... I even have it on now at 2am lol. It was cute though, 'cause his rooms really dusty haha and I kept making fun of him for it pretty much everytime I'm in his room. Then he pulls the chapstick thing and wouldn't let me live it down. He took me to the pool hall tonight; I was so terrible. I had an old man come over and give me some pointers it was funny, but really nice. He kept moving the ball and making me try shots over and over cause I would miss. I finally started to get better but he could see I was getting agitated by my suckiness, heh, so we wound up leaving. It was still pretty cool though. I started taking pictures of him and he kept criticizing himself in every one. I was like 'Hey, whatever flaws you see I don't see them. I just see you.' He deleted a lot of them but he let me keep some, and he'd probably kill me if I posted them lol. Some are really cute too :). I understand though, 'cause I'm the same way. I hate having my picture taken. I've kind of loosened up though, but I'm still insecure. Tomorrow I'm hanging with Greg and we're gonna record some songs. I'm excited :) it's been awhile since I've hung out with him and he always likes jammin with me. It's cool to have a friend that you never see but you can still be comfortable around to just chill out be yourself and rip the layers off and write and sing with. But I'm gonna get some sleep gotta work at 10 tomorrow. Can't wait till Sunday when I have off again and I get to hang out with Carrie :). Saturday I gotta work 12-930 it's gonna blow. Night all. Spin.

all about the eyes [Tuesday Jun.10.08] [ mood | content ] [ music | Foo Fighters- What If I Do ] He's invited me to a wedding at the end of this month :). He picked up his tux today, I bet he'll look so cute too. He keeps saying he'll look like a monkey lol. He's such a nut. I'm so nervous, I don't even know what dress I'm going to wear. He's so great. We went to Tom and Jerry's and we were playing pool Friday night and this drunk guy called me one eye cause my hair was in my face. Of course the guy had no idea, I mean he was wasted, but he was pissed lol. He's like 'I'm gonna kick his ass', and I'm just like 'It's cool, really no big deal'. But he was so mad, lol, he's probably the most muscular guy I've been with, he's my big tough knight in shining armor heh :). He wound up carrying me to the car in the parking lot. It was so cute. I'm going to visit Carrie this weekend, I can't wait. We're gonna meet in Center City. I haven't seen her in such a long time, it's really crazy. I can't wait though. I saw The Eye, with Jessica Alba. It was really predictable. I'm willing to bet the Japanese version is ten times better, but I probably wouldn't be able to handle the eye stuff. He showed me The Garbage Pail Kids and his collection of cards and I saw this one I really liked. He was like 'There, that's your next tattoo' lol. It was a guy with a walking stick putting 25 cents in a gum balls machine, only it had eyeballs in it instead. It was really clever. But I think I'm gonna go to bed. The Happening is coming out on Friday, I can't wait :). lol random. I know. Night all. 2 Records - Spin.

the new beginning [Monday Jun.9.08] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | Paradise Lost- Erased ] it's something new. i'll tell you that. never been like this before. i'm not turning back. and for once, i'm not questioning myself. I've decided to write in here more, now that I actually can. Things have been wonderful, for the first time in a long time. You know how you keep going back to something old because it's familiar and you know how things will be... well for once I can say I didn't. And for once I feel absolutely, positively, wonderful because I found something new. Work is work, and it always will be, but at least things are looking up. I did all the interviews and brought on two new guys. The one is great and I'm glad I brought him on, the other was a no show and had some lame story about going to a concert and having to walk home...blah blah blah. He's not working at my store, I'll tell you that heh. Went on my first date ever about a week ago. It was really nice having someone ask me out and be a gentleman and open doors for me and whatnot. It's funny how it worked out, it happened out of nowhere and I'm really glad. He's older and more mature than most of the guys I've been with and he's hilarious. I think that's really important, having a sense of humor. We've gone on two more dates since then, we went out to dinner and then third was the movies to see Don't Mess with the Zohan, which was hilarious. I had a lot of fun and it's turned into something more :). He wants to take me to a Horror convention and this place he goes to get tattoos done. He's really nice and treats me with respect and we have a lot of things in common. It's nice being happy for once. I have to go visit Carrie sometime soon. I miss her so much, it really sucks not having her around. Marissa and Geiger are throwing a going away party on Saturday so I might go to that. Jim and I are friends again, and I'm glad for that. I'm hoping to clear things up with everyone, I want to start fresh... I want a new beginning. But I have to go my pillow is calling, even though it's ridiculously hot in this house. Night :). Spin.

[Thursday Sep.21.06] Bob took over Liz's journal. And Bob says "i am not updating a lot because i dont have time for that" yeah. 2 Records - Spin.

[Tuesday Sep.5.06] Take the quiz: Which LOST character are you? Claire You are Claire You are very sweet, but you carry the spawn of Satan. Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook! lol she's one of my favorites. i cant wait till the action figures come out. I really wanna get Charlie. I really like Sawyer and Sayeed (sp?), but I know they aren't putting out the Sawyer one with the first collection so I gotta wait. But Yeah.... Season 2 tomorrow!! WOO HOO!! I can finally watch it. Season 1 was awesome, I like freakin' became so obsessed! But ah Im tired. arrivederci.. 3 Records - Spin.

[Wednesday Aug.30.06] Found a guitarist! Setting up an audition, possibly getting a band together. :) things are just falling into place :) 2 Records - Spin.

[Monday Aug.28.06] Haven't updated in awhile, figured since I'm bored this is something to do lol. Today is Tim's birthday :). He had a party yesterday I bought him the Darth Vader lightsaber from Master Replicas, Corpse Bride on dvd, two kindgom heart's mangas, a lock stock and barrell snowglobe from the disney store, it's really cool, a jack skellington figure ('cause he looks like Jack hehe), and 32 fortune cookies from China Town. It was like a last minute thing with the fortune cookies. He really likes them so I asked my Pop to bring me to China Town to get him a bag of fortune cookies. The guys in the chinese food store are friends of mine and they were like "Ohh these are for Elizabeth for birthday party. She have a good time!" lol amd gave me two extra cookies hehe. But yeah too much to write about. He's done playing Dead Rising now so I'm gonna go lay with him. arrivederci.. :) 3 Records - Spin.

[Monday Aug.14.06] I heard this song, and I can't figure out for the life of me who sings it. It's called "I'm Around". I heard it on myspace, it's sung by a woman and I downloaded it to my computer but I never added her name to the file. It goes like this.... Home in my own bed with the new sheets I suppose I should have known that my new life Would bleed out onto these old streams Where the trees hang to the ground and there’s never any sound after nine And my dad watches the news on a couch that’s worn and used And he laughs at the wrong times Oh the wrongs times Oh the wrong times… She’s letting go in a cold snow on a windy day And we lye in the streets below And despite my coat I feel like I could blow away I am swallowing the air That only tastes this way out here in this town And all that I can do is just stay in a view So she knows that I’m around I’m around I’m around I get back home and this new place has an old feel Out on the porch I’m still alone But if I look then they’re real All around me they appear coming on a night so clear Falling down They’re the ghost of me and you Open up and let them through ‘Cause they’ll always be around I’m around I’m around I’m around but i really like it, so if anyone knows who it is or ever heard it maybe. I dunno, lemme know, 'cause I really like it a lot. arrivederci... lol so random 4 Records - Spin.

[Saturday Aug.12.06] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Reggie and the Full Effect - Happy V Day ] I went to see Pulse tonight with Tim, Bryan, Zach and Jill. On the way up we were listening to B101 like fulling around and George Michael came on, Carless Whisper haha, and we all started singing it haha. When we pulled into the Regal there was people walking in the parking lot so TIm started singing out the window to them and asking them to dance and we saw this one big fat guy in spandex and he said it to him hahaha. So we got out and he piggy back rided me half way asking where i was haha (hes so cute) and then when we got the front of the entrance the fat spandex guy was out front and was like "There's my lover" to Tim and hugged him and they started dancing hahaha and then the fat guy kissed his head haha. It was funny but sooooo creepy lol. Then we got in the movie theatre and this black kid came in with a 40 trying to steal peoples g/fs lol he was like making us crack up, he was so retarded lol. Then we saw Roland and he gave me a hug lol, dude he's the man. I dunno why he was at the movies by himself but he's still the FUCKIN MAN! [by the by, PULSE WAS LAME, DONT GO SEE IT!] On the way back Billy Idol was on lol, me and Tim were doing the robot and Jill was talking about braiding pubic hair lol and getting some beads and a weave hahahaha. Tim's friends are so fucking cool :). But it was such an awesome night. I love Tim, he's hilarious and I don't know how anyone could ever have let him go. He's amazing, I'm really lucky :). well, just wanted to tell everyone that 'cause it was hilarious lol. Started at Dell, yayy.. I'm working my ass off but im tired man lol. arrivederci... 2 Records - Spin.

[Thursday Aug.3.06] [ mood | excited ] Tim is taking me up to the poconos this weekend :), im sooo excited. We're gonna go fishing and all this fun stuff :). He's so amazing!! Well, I'll be back Monday. My house is officially going up for sale tomorrow (friday) at 10AM. It's so weird.... but we're really moving! I can't wait. arrivederci... 2 Records - Spin.

[Saturday Jul.29.06] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Temple of the Dog - Hunger Strike ] Haven't really been updating lately, so I figured I would. A lot has happened since the last time I really updated. I have a new job, I haven't started yet I've been training and whatnot, but I'm gonna be getting 11 bucks an hour so :). I've also found myself an amazing guy. I decided that I was gonna be single and just forget about finding anyone or going back to anyone from the past. I was done with relationships. But then I met him and it just kinda sparked. I know it's all so soon, but I haven't felt this way about anyone in a very long time. His names Tim, and we have so much in common it's so great. But ahh lol.. I'm not gonna start, I could go on forever. lol I went to visit Carrie for a few days. It was so much fun, aside from me having do training the whole time. I rode on one of those horses you put quarters in haha and we just had a lot of fun. I made two t-shirts and put lettering on them, well Carrie did the ironing on lol. I just picked the letters but they look awesome. I came back on Thursday and Tim picked me up and he bought me shirts from Hot Topic. It was so sweet :). But I'm gonna go, figured I'd write while i was bored waiting for him to get home. arrivederci... 4 Records - Spin.

Zimmerman & Me writing in his xanga... [Wednesday Jul.26.06] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | Reggie and the full effect - get well soon ] hahahaha this is like from so long ago but Dan IMed me to show me his old Xanga. we were in the library writing in it haha... "this is dan and liz talking... dan should get beat up by Shannon! that was mean liz MUAHAHAHAHA liz cant type...shes a dumb bitch...and evil...EAT THAT dan and dante get naked together! yea and your point?...shes got nothing to say..hahahahahahaha i will mock her as she taps her lips with her finger...now folds her arms...now laughs... dan is a goofballQ!!! again...she cant type...and...shes still got nothing...wow i keep h0oi!! Dan wont stop making fun of me i will use my force to make him roar like a dragi! i wish i knew what a dragi was..." hahahaha fun times. i just wanted to post that 'cause it was hilarious. Spin.

:) [Sunday Jul.16.06] [ mood | happy ] [ music | the beatles - it's getting better all the time ] carrie : lol what would you do without me? carrie: hahah me : lol i have no idea care carrie : you'd have no girl talk me: lol i def wouldnt <3 i love my best friend :) 5 Records - Spin.

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